Floating flower
in the sky.
Kiss me with your
Petal wings---
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Sunday, February 04, 2007
10:37
it was a little queer meeting them agn after the longest time (: things have changed, people have found who they believe to be their other halves and i feel genuinely happy for them :D have we really grown up that much at all? i dont know much. but i guess we have found new directions in life and have endeavoured to work towards it in the hope of coming to find that we were right to have made the various decisions. it was quite a good time nonetheless, with one of us preparing to get it right that night :D it was kinda cute seeing someone you once ________ carrying out something so carefully thought out and planned and so hopeful, to say the least (: and at that point i realised how nonchalant i was about this whole issue about dating. much as i relished in the attention that was lavished on me, somehow i just couldn't see myself settling down with the person. a friend once told me how inconvenient she felt about looking above average. at first, i was quite confused about where this conversation was heading but as the conversation went on, i could sense that she wasn't trying to be showy or arrogant but was simply lamenting about the troubles it brought. she said that so many people had complemented on her looks that she never did believe in love at first sight. i was quite surprised at her words for isn't it the best thing to have someone tell you that u were pretty? her further explanation put things into clearer perspective and i saw where she was coming from. i could only sit and listen patiently as she explained how she always suspected that she would never find the guy who saw her inside out and for who she was, not what she looked like. at that, i couldn't answer her but smiled and told her that i believed there was someone for everyone, it just took time to find it. she only gave a wry smile. thinking back on that conversation, i look at myself and wonder why dating has never quite been a want or need for me in recent times. could it be the last 2 relationships which i ended? perhaps, perhaps not. but for now, is this plan in my life the right one for me? am i going to look back at the end of the day and regret not having slotted in a time for dating? i guess i'll never know.