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Friday, November 18, 2005
10:27
you think youve made it everything is going so fine, but then appears someone who wanna tear you down, wanna rip you of those few nice things youve found, when and if you hit the ground, and it's falling kinda hard.
i dont knw wht to think knw ? it's like i try so hard to be strong inside but thn it seems like ever since i go tthe post of band major, everyone just wants to get it back frm me. if you were so reluctant to give me this post ? why give it to me in the first place and want to get it back frm me now ? why tell me tt i simply havent shown my full potential yet and tt if i want to step dwn i may anytime i wish ? why ? why do you want to show me happiness and cruelly rip it frm me ? and mind you, it feels forced, it feels like im being manipulated into wanting to step down so that it dsnt seem like ure the mean ones. you knw wht, i shall simply keep my rump in it's place and nvr step dwn. i can nvr pls you so if you want, you can pull me frm my place but i will not give it up. i will work harder and try not to be overwhelmed by ur hurtful words. i try, i do. but nth seems to be going right for me. it's not my fault that i hv other commitments and therefore hv to skip a few band pracs. you knw im sorry to say this, but although miss sia is a very very gd conductor, i will not join band in jc if she's the conductor. sure she's rly gd but she dsnt knw how hurtful she can be at times (most of the time..) and how unreasonable she can be to. our lives dont revolve arnd band. she dsnt udstd at all. our lives cannot revolve arnd band. you knw, ic an actually alr quit band. ive got my A1 for cca alr. but im not gg to give up cos i kinda like playing with the rest of the ppl. it's enjoyable sometimes whn she's in a gd mood n not trying to put everyone else arnd her dwn. ((shrugs)) im not tt irresponsible ok. i will persevere.